It’s been three weeks since my last post. Three weeks since I planned out my London posts, planned when I’d post them. Three weeks since I logged into my dashboard and got on with blogging.
This wasn’t intentional. I initially planned to have all my London posts out by now, but that just didn’t happen. It’s a mixture of still being in holiday mode, and also finding it difficult to find the words to describe how ridiculously overwhelming my trip to London was. London always makes me feel like I’m in some kind of strange and magical wonderland, and it’s so hard to describe that adventure without wanting to be back there.
A few years ago, I fell so in love with London that I planned to move there when I graduated. But then, life changed, things happened, and I didn’t end up taking that path. It’ll always be something I’m curious about, always an adventure I’ll have in the back of my mind, but, right now, I love where I am. But, I think it’s the whole idea that my life could’ve been so different that makes visiting London an incredibly, overwhelmingly emotional experience.
To cut a long story short, that’s kind of why I’ve been a bit quiet on here.
Other than reflecting on my London experience, the past month has involved a lot of working, a lot of relaxing and lots of evenings out with friends. The weekends have gone back to being busy and friend-filled and I’ve really been enjoying myself. I’ve started focusing more on writing creatively, picked out a few writing events to attend and began filling in my 642 things to write about book. It’s been quite nice to not have a schedule to write to on here, and I’ve actually enjoyed putting my creative writing first. I always put the blog first, and that usually means I don’t have enough time to write for myself, which is sad. I definitely need to get better at balancing things!
The diet has gone to shit as usual, I still spend my evenings surrounded by chocolate, and, since being “inspired” by our TV in London, I mainly spend my evenings tucked up on the sofa watching shit TV on 4 On Demand. By shit, I obviously mean horribly addictive and wonderful, and I will fight anyone who says that watching Tattoo Fixers, Naked Attraction and Ramsay’s Kitchen Nightmares is a waste of my time.
I’ve been struggling with anxiety lately, and have ended up missing out on a few opportunities because of this. I’ve stopped drinking coffee in the hope that it’ll help, and started trying to get more sleep, especially on work nights. I’ve also forced myself to eat better things for health reasons, and actually rang to book my appointment to see what’s going on with my stomach.
Even though the all the holidays and fun events have been great this year, I’m glad to be finally at a point where I’m not putting all my money aside for stuff and can actually spend spend spend on other things. New Look have been receiving all the money that doesn’t automatically go into my savings recently, and it’s been really nice to have some clothes that are new and actually fit me. I’ve rarely bought anything in the last few years because I hated my body, but I’m finally realising that putting on a bit of weight doesn’t have to be a bad thing. I don’t have to reach my target weight to buy new clothes and I definitely shouldn’t feel like I have to keep wearing worn, old jeans forever. That’s ridiculous.
September has flown by, but it’s been a fantastic month, and I’m really looking forward to all things autumn. Is it Halloween yet?!
Goals For October
1. Do at least one hour of creative writing per week.
2. Lose 10lbs before my birthday shopping trip.
3. Get all my London posts written!
September in Figures
Books read: 1
Money saved: I’m not sure how much I saved, but I successfully spent £50 on M&M’s so it’s all good.
Weight lost: No comment.
Blogs posted: 2
Exercise done: I must have walked at least 3,000,000 miles in London…
How was your month?