I’m sitting here with so many planned posts/drafts/things in my head but no words will come out. I just can’t finish anything (insert rude joke), and every time I try to blog recently I end up staring at Facebook and Twitter for three hours, then getting sad, because I’ve spent all my free time doing nothing.
I write all day. I wake up on a morning, go to work and I write. It’s my full-time job now and I love it, but I wonder if that’s why I don’t always want to come home and stare at my laptop for the entire evening. I used to spend all my evenings on the Internet. I’d get home from school and sit in my Dad’s garage on the computer, even when it was freezing in winter, I’d still spent my entire evening down there, working on content for my website. But then school got harder. I had revision. Coursework. I got a boyfriend. And, last year, a full-time job. Somehow, the blog stopped being my one true love, and moved into the background. This makes me sad. Very sad.
I plan a lot of content on my lunch breaks at work, but I avoid writing it. I’m anxious that if I write something on my lunch it’ll be rushed and I don’t want to make content I’m not proud of. I look back at some of the posts from a few years back, when I challenged myself to blog every day for a month, and I cringe. I mean, come on Amy? You can do better than that. Can’t you?
I think that’s what I’m doing now. Worrying about posts being rushed. Andy comes home in just over an hour and I still have to wash-up and throw my seventeen million empty cans of Pepsi Max in the bin. I have a to-do list on my fridge that never ever leaves and, sadly, doing the washing has to come before blogging. I really miss being a teenager in these moments. It was so easy to find time to do things back then. Teenage Amy didn’t even know the meaning of stress, I tell you.
No, this post isn’t just to complain that being an adult is hard. Because it is, sometimes, but it doesn’t have to be. Because instead of getting annoyed that I “won’t have time to write groundbreaking and amazing content that will win me the blogging equivalent of an Emmy”, I should be trying to do something about it. So that’s why I’ve come up with a genius plan. No, its not a version of the iPhone 7 that includes a headphone jack. (But we do all wish they’d put the damn hole back).
Every night I have an average of four hours free time, two of which, I am alone for (don’t come murder me). I spend 3-4 hours a day on the bus, have half an hour lunch, then have the entire weekend off work. So, on weekdays alone, I have almost 8 hours where I could be writing a post.
I’m going to start small. I’m going to put three hours a week aside for blogging. I’m going to write the times in my super-awesome parrot planner, which doesn’t get the use it should do. And I’m going to have enough time to blog again. Properly. There might even be pictures.
I love blogging, so it’s really important to me that I have enough time to do it like I used to. Although, without the staying up writing all night, because I have to be a responsible adult as well now. And trying to stay awake at a computer screen after less than four hours sleep is a nightmare. Kind of like the iPhone 7.
I’d be really interested to know how you find time to blog, and, also, whether you have a set time when you do? I’ve never been one to pencil-in blogging, but life’s getting so much more hectic now, and I don’t want to stop. Any tips would be much appreciated!